Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Led Zeppelin Songs

He says, "I'm a renegade, that's why."

And my eyes roll in the back of my head once again. I look down and see what we made and think to myself, "what the hell have I done?"

And I think about all the freedom that you have...and all the responsibilities that I have and the things you get to enjoy for moments, hours, but nothing more. All the girls you get to date. How nice it would be to be taken out somewhere...I haven't been on a date in well over a year and a half.

No sight in the near future for this either.

You think you know what lonely feels like. Too bad that isn't even on your radar.
And when I'm at the most lonesome point and look to someone...no one is there. But it's my fault for not being self-reliant.

I am looking for change, but I'm looking for change in the wrong human-being. I'm wishing that you'd change. You'd want to be with me. Not owned, not required, but with me, a partner...an equal.

But this change that I look for in you is not something that is anything to hold onto and what I need to do is look for change in myself.