I date the same man. Not literally, not physically, but figuratively, they are the same every time. I have become adjusted to hearing the words, "every experience I have can not be with you or have something to do with you." Yes, it hurts and yes, it sucks and obviously I know that life is not like that. And men I love do not need me to be their everything. That is good. I can't be everything. At the same time It is interesting to realize they are constantly trying to grow apart and away from me. Maybe it is me, maybe I am some relationship killer. Whether I am or not I need to realize to unclip their wings or they will enver fly back to me. I am constantly experiencing life with or without men and I feel like the men I attract do not see how this is done and feel like they have to be free or looking for that someone better who "understands" them in orderto go on with their lives. That's okay, I don't blame them. After all I am a whole lotta love to handle. I am aware of my intensity and of my velocity.
Otherwise, I let them walk away. I put up a fight, but not a big one just enough to cause a scene. I want him back, but I can't force it. I can't force love or lust or whatever bullshit it is and I certainly can't make up people's destinies for them. You know where I am and I'll wait for you to figure out where you are. I hope it's here with me, but I'm not holding my breath.
Not for anyone.
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